My Oatey Cinnamon Bakes

Recipe by Rachel Burridge.

250grams of butter.

110grams of sugar.

360grams of plain flour.

1 tsp of cinnamon powder.

50grams of porridge oats.

Method.

Simply mix all the ingredients together with your hands until a soft dough feel.

Roll out onto a surface lightly floured.

Cut into thick shapes, nothing perfect just some little circles or go crazy with all different shapes it’s the taste that counts!

Bake at 190 degrees in the oven for 20 minutes then leave to cool.

Faking Depression.

It’s 10am and i’ve only just woke up on my day off work, after working 88 hours over 9 days. My head is allover the place and I have to keep reminding myself to take my medication and have some breakfast, that staying in bed all day won’t help me. I finally pull myself out of bed, grab a coffee and put on the TV to try and wake myself up a little with ITV This Morning, one of my favourite day time channels to watch on my days off work.

As I sit there, my head still coming round battling with thoughts of anxiety, depression, unworthiness, panic, guilt, there is a women with a smile from ear to ear on my TV screen laughing at the face of the NHS saying she ”faked depression to get her nose job”! Well anger was the main emotion spinning round my head when I saw this! All my life I have battled with endless stigma around my mental health, from people not believing mental illness is real to people thinking mental illness just means you should self harm and end your own life. From being 15 years of age to 24 years of age now I have battled with that stigma and abuse daily and will do probably the rest of my life and that’s hard enough but put that ontop of the abuse and negativity my own mental illness feeds my mind daily it’s deadly.

I wouldn’t wish my mental illness on my worst enemy, as much as i’d like to be rid of my own mental illness I wouldn’t pass it on to anyone to have the freedom, but I sure as hell am not going to battle with my mind 24/7 7 days a week, 365 days a year to watch some smug woman on my TV screen openly and freely admit with a smile on her face that she faked what I have just to gain a nose job!

It’s bad enough that you would even go to the lengths of lying to the NHS to get such a prize, but it’s even worse that you would openly come on national TV and laugh at the face of mental illness and those who fight so hard to live a normal life while living with a mental illness, and fight for the stigma to be gone! What angers me even more as I write this blog is simply that I am writing this blog! Because I am giving her the attention she wants, the publicity, her name to be allover social media, her face to be known. Isn’t it about time we stopped giving these kind of people airtime on our screens? Isn’t it time these people were punished for putting the NHS in the state it’s in? Isn’t it time innocent people got some justice?! Isn’t it time we took the smile of their faces? Isn’t it time things changed?

Stay strong, Keep faith.

RayRay.

Go Away, Please Stay!

Poetry By Rachel Burridge.

Head clouded with thoughts, flying from every direction.

Heart bubbling with a million emotions, craving more affection.

She’s madly inlove with him, he’s madly inlove with her.

She knows all this already but she can’t keep from asking him if he’s sure?

She only asked him last night if he still wanted to stay with her forvever.

But 24 hours can change so much, she needs to make sure they are still together.

She begs and pleads for him to remind her why he wants to remain by her side.

She smiles while he reminds her from the begining but she can’t help thinking he’s lied.

”If you want to go just go right now” she screams inbetween tears.

She would rather be alone than live with all these screaching fears.

An hour later she cries and begs and pleads him not to go.

He whispers in her ear no matter how much you tell me to run i’ll always say no.

She needs daily reminders and to stay true to his word that he will always stay.

And all those poisonous jelous voices will be kept right at bay.

The Water Baby.

Poetry By Rachel Burridge.

Her head full of clouds, a big ball of mess.

A head full of negativity and bad thoughts but no where to confess.

She’s screaming for help but no one is there to listen.

No matter how many times she sleeps the voices never go missing.

She walks down to the river it’s the quietest place she knows.

The rush of the water flowing and suddenly the loud voices goes.

She dips her feet in the water and closes her eyes shut.

Her worries floating away in the sky she’s crawling out of her rut.

The fish splashing out of the water, hello smile on her face.

She thought there was no hope for her but this wasn’t the case.

As the water flow slowed down, so did the rush of her anxiety.

She realised the problem she had was only one with society.

Everyday from then on she sat by her favourite spot.

To take a break from her busy mind in a place that had been forgot.

Bring Your Own Plastic Containers!

I don’t know whether anyone has heard or seen on the BBC news/ website today but Waitrose but they are finally doing something amazing nd life changing and heading in the right direction for helping us cut down on plastic waste!

Waitrose is now trialling where you bring your own plastic container to refill it with everyday goods such as pasta, rice and cereals. Not only that but also be one of the first to be offering pick and mix frozen fruit. Basically what you do is go into the shop and you ‘borrow a box’ which requires a deposit of five pounds and when you bring the box back you then get your five pound back.

I personally think this is just an amazing idea and think every supermarket chain should be doing the same to help the environment. Why do we need a new plastic bag, container, bottle everyday anyway or every time we purchase new items? We wash the same plates and cups everyday at home and reuse them so why shouldn’t we be doing the same when it comes to our plastic containers that our food is purchased in!

I think another amazing way to lead on from this idea would be to have refill stations at all local shops and supermarkets for our drinks you bring your own drinks bottle in and fill it up with whatever choice of drink you want weigh and pay for the drink you’ve bought filling any size bottle up from home with whichever drink you want and buy bringing your own bottle get a discount on the drink because everyone goes for the bargain option but everyone still likes to get their favourite drinks from the shop so it’s a win win for everyone while helping to save the environment.

Stay Strong, Keep Faith

RayRay

Society Sucks.

Poetry By Rachel Burridge.

She decides to take a steady drive, get out and see the world.

But the driver behind doesn’t like how slow she’s going as he shoots by her in a whirl.

She decides to take a steady walk and mooch at the shop windows displays.

But the couple behind are too busy to admire them, ”we haven’t got time to waste” he say’s.

She decides to stop and ask someone at work how their holiday went.

But the manager doesn’t see that as work and shouts ”make sure your times well spent”!

She decides to colour her hair at home a little dip dye, she wanted a change.

But a group of teenagers at the corner shop decide they don’t like it and tell her she looks strange.

She waits for her friends to come round tonight, she hasn’t seen them in so long.

But they just want to sit on their phones all night, It’s all just feels so wrong.

She decides to stay at home today, just sit infront of the TV.

But it’s all doom and gloom from around the world no joy on here to see.

A More Simple Life.

Yesterday I took the plunge a plunge I have been wanting to take for a while, if it doesn’t fit your not having it! I know you probably think I just mean clothes but I don’t. I decided to sell my wardrobe yesterday and downsize to a set of drawers and anything that didn’t fit in them drawers I threw away! And I realised something I have kept looking at my half filled wardrobe and kept on filling it up with items I never even wore just to fill the gaps but once the clothes were popped into my drawers I had too many, my problem was my wardrobe was too big not that I needed anymore clothes.

After clearing out my wardrobe I went onto my body care drawers, two drawers full of shampoo, conditioner, lotions and makeup items that were no longer any good because I had bought new not looking to check if I had any because an item was on sale or looked nicer than my other and now I had two drawers full! I felt vulnerable like I had been sucked into every sales pitch going just filling every drawer and space I had with bargains that were going to waste to have the buzz from saving money that the sales stickers had promised me, but a buzz doesn’t last forever.

I was on a roll then, I soon realised all these extra items were just cluttering my mind, I had been joining in on the rat race for too long buying things for the sake of buying to save money or feel better about myself when in reality I had spent more than saved and felt worse than before. I bagged it all up, some went in the bin others for sale to make some money to save aside instead of spend again, save for something to create a better future for me and my partner, save for something that would actually make an impact on our lives.

As I looked around my house, shaking from the adrenaline feeling like I had lost my mind a little the house looked bare but now my head felt the same. I had decluttered my home and at the same time rescued my mind from feeling the pressure to have more than the next person, all I needed was what I actually needed and once it’s gone replace with new, no need to bulk buy anymore, no need to panic!

Stay Strong,Keep Faith.

RayRay.